Will God do what I want?
The center of the self, the heart or
spirit, is now willing for God to be God—even if with little hope or
enthusiasm. Perhaps it is only willing to be made willing. But it is for lack
of this minimal identification with God’s will that multitudes of people are
unable to understand the truth of Jesus (John 7:17). Such persons are not
willing to do his will, and hence God does not open their understanding, and
they cannot do so.
They are left to struggle in the darkness, which in fact they desire. And they will certainly reproach God for not giving them more light, though they are unwilling to act on the light they have.
Accordingly, older Christian writers
often speak of how we are privileged to “kiss the rod” of affliction which
strikes us, even while trembling with weakness and pain. What a crucial lesson
this is for spiritual transformation! We cease to live on edge, wondering,
“Will God do what I want?” Pain will not turn to bitterness or disappointment
to paralysis. Such a one has learned, in the words of Tennyson, to . . . so
forecast the years, And find in loss a gain to match, And reach a hand through
time to catch The far-off interest of tears.
Beyond abandonment is contentment with the will of God: not only with his being who he is and ordaining what he has ordained in general, but with the lot that has fallen to us. At this point in the progression toward complete identification with the will of God, gratitude and joy are the steady tone of our life. We are now assured that God has done, and will always do, well by us—no matter what! Dreary, foot-dragging surrender to God looks like a far distant country. Also, at this point, duplicity looks like utter foolishness in which no sane person would be involved. Grumbling and complaining are gone (Philippians 2:14-15)—not painstakingly resisted or eliminated, but simply unthought of. “Rejoice evermore” is natural and appropriate. pp. 150-151
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